I just finished reading 'Many Lives Many Masters', by Dr. Brian Weiss, a famous psychiatrist in USA.
This was a gift to me from someone special and when I started reading it I never imagined my life would get
altered to this extent. Being an avid reader any book is special to me, but I never let the castle-in-the-sky version
of my precious companions delude me into entering their world from my real and introverted one. As words flowed and chapters
unraveled with each passing moment I was being pulled by a magnetic force into the world of karmic connections and past-life
regressions. (Something that until then held no importance in my life and never had given it a thought)
I never actually believed in the concept of past-lives and reincarnations, it always seemed like an unsolved
and mystifying topic. But as I progressed with Catherine in her hypnotic sessions, I realized that maybe somewhere I was also going
through a transformation. As it is quoted in the book 'Everything has a reason', I was left wondering if there actually is an
explanation for the mysterious ways of life and the way it shapes up for each of us.
In the book as Catherine's fears and anxieties die out after the first few sessions of re-living her past lives, it shows somewhere our behavior, qualms and attitude are pre-determined from the happenings of the previous birth. May sound something that could be well rubbished, thinking intently about it I concluded that maybe just maybe I already know a lot about life than I give myself credit for. Maybe I have already loved, learned and hurt all I need to do is realize that it is there.
As Catherine marched pass each lifetime with something new to learn and share a word from the 'Masters', something deep inside me stirred. I was anxious after assimilating the fact that maybe we carry our past lessons with us into every new lifetime and are expected to implement it TODAY.
What I failed to realize is that whether what fears and values I have today have anything to do with my past life or are stemmed from my present life experiences.
Whether the people I feel a deep bond with today are in some way attached to my previous births. Catherine, after having lived 86 lives to came to terms with the fact that she has died only physically but her spirit is eternal, so is everyone else's.
Am I also to come to terms with the verity that my spirit has lived, bruised, learned, loved and resurfaced in some other form in this lifetime and shall continue to do so?
There have been many instances in my life when I have had visions and intuitions about hings that are in no way related to my current life, but have been strong enough to revive something in my psyche and made me think.....
Are the insecurities and inhibitions I have now because I have been through bad experiences instigating these feelings? Is my perception to love and be loved, friendship got anything to do with my past-life? Is the emotional diffidence there due to past-life betrayals?
There have been people who couldn't touch my life in the many years spent with me, but there are people who came as strangers touched my life in a way that showed me some of the happiest moments of my life. Some stayed forever some left, but all of them have left an indispensable mark in my life.....
Maybe they were 'souls' I loved dearly and lost and was reunited again with or maybe I had to serve a purpose by being in their lives.....
I do not know the answers to these questions but I sure feel more enlightened and secure with myself knowing that I will live forever and again .........and again.........and someday what I have lost shall be mine again………